I was waiting for a call, but then I got a letter instead

Well, as the title of the post says, I was waiting for a call, but got a letter regarding my application instead. So far, so good and the people I've spoken to have been really friendly and helpful.

If the entire staff is like this then the ball of anxiety in my stomach will surely go away.

I have some issues with formal education - my experiences weren't great on the whole. The schools I went to were uninterested in the fact that I was being bullied and excluded from things for the entire 10 years I was in (legally required) education. And in college I was too damaged to know how to integrate or make friends and ended up having a bit of a breakdown and going rather people-phobic. I'm still a little anti-social but I am secure in who I am and can cope with my own moodswings better, let alone anyone elses'.

I don't know why I was bullied in the first place, but I feel the fact that it continued for so long can in some ways be attributed to my own actions. I didn't have the rough edges smoothed off by socialising as a child / teenager, and continually behaved like victim, daring people to comment. In a way it is self-perpetuating, I think.

But the gist of this ramble is - the idea of going to school makes me anxious and I'm working on it.

Also, appear to be getting better at capitalising when I'm supposed to, so some success is clearly being had.

In other news, 2007 was an odd year. All year I felt like time was running away from me and that I wasn't doing anything social / constructive / interesting. Then in hindsight, every month I'd realise that actually I'd gone to a gig, out for dinner, met friends and spring cleaned the house. I'm clearly not the best judge of my own activity level. I guess if you're your own worst enemy, at least you know where you stand.